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I've had a stomachache all week, which has been making me think of two winters ago when I had to spend a week and a half on the couch taking massive amounts of antibiotics because what the doctor thought was appendicitis turned out to be something else completely random (although much preferable because it didn't involve having my appendix out). The week and a half on the couch was, between naps, good thinkin' time, and I remember spending a lot of time pondering what I had done right that year, and what I hadn't quite accomplished. Since that year was a week from being over, I didn't have a whole lot of time to wrap up anything I hadn't quite done, but it did give me time to think about what I could do to make the next year better.

So last night instead of sleeping I was thinking that if I had to spend another week and a half on the couch now, that would still give me two months to do better in 2007. At the beginning of this year I decided a few things that I'd like to try to accomplish. It was kind of about being a better version of myself, so I've thought of 2007 as the year of doing the right thing. For me this has meant:

1) BEING LESS OF AN ASSHOLE. To some people I work with in particular, and to people in general. I think most would agree I still have some work to do here.
2) CARING LESS WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME. Yeah, that's still on the docket for 2008.
3) THANKING PEOPLE WHO SHOULD BE THANKED. Especially for inspiration, which is hard to do without looking like a complete sap, but I really feel it should be done anyway.
4) NOT BEING SO, as my friend Rebecca says, "NOT FRIENDLY." Less prickly, less folded arms, less barbed wire and land mines and alligators in the moat. This means being a better friend to the people who are already my friends, and trying a little harder with the new people I meet out in the world.

Making a MySpace page and a page on LiveJournal were part of the experiment that I could be a little better at all of these things this year, and not be so damn scared of people sometimes. Or scared of looking like an idiot. Or whatever it is.

So, the good part is the two months left in the year. November and December aren't really my favorite months, so maybe this'll give me a nice diversion in them, no?